3 eclipse月食-第98部分

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　I　already　had　my　story　memorized　and　corroborated。　“I　don’t　care。　I　want　to　be　there　when　Jacob　wakes　
up。”　
　“You　need　to　think　of　Charlie　now。　You’ve　had　a　long　day　—　sorry；　I　know　that　doesn’t　begin　to　cover　it　
—　but　that　doesn’t　mean　that　you　can　shirk　your　responsibilities。”　Her　voice　was　serious；　almost　chiding。　“It’s　
more　important　now　than　ever　that　Charlie　stays　safely　in　the　dark。　Play　your　role　first；　Bella；　and　then　you　can　
do　what　you　want　second。　Part　of　being　a　Cullen　is　being　meticulously　responsible。”　
　Of　course　she　was　right。　And　if　not　for　this　same　reason　—　a　reason　that　was　more　powerful　than　all　my　
fear　and　pain　and　guilt　—　Carlisle　would　never　have　been　able　to　talk　me　into　leaving　Jacob’s　side；　
unconscious　or　not。　
　“Go　home；”　Alice　ordered。　“Talk　to　Charlie。　Flesh　out　your　alibi。　Keep　him　safe。”　
　I　stood；　and　the　blood　flowed　down　to　my　feet；　stinging　like　the　pricks　of　a　thousand　needles。　I’d　been　
sitting　still　for　a　long　time。　
　“That　dress　is　adorable　on　you；”　Alice　cooed。　
　“Huh？　Oh。　Er　—　thanks　again　for　the　clothes；”　I　mumbled　out　of　courtesy　rather　than　real　gratitude。　
　“You　need　the　evidence；”　Alice　said；　her　eyes　innocent　and　wide。　“What’s　a　shopping　trip　without　a　new　
outfit？　It’s　very　flattering；　if　I　do　say　so　myself。”　
　I　blinked；　unable　to　remember　what　she’d　dressed　me　in。　I　couldn’t　keep　my　thoughts　from　skittering　
away　every　few　seconds；　insects　running　from　the　light。　。　。　。　
　“Jacob　is　fine；　Bella；”　Alice　said；　easily　interpreting　my　preoccupation。　“There’s　no　hurry。　If　you　realized　
how　much　extra　morphine　Carlisle　had　to　give　him　—　what　with　his　temperature　burning　it　off　so　quickly　—　
you　would　know　that　he’s　going　to　be　out　for　a　while。”　
　At　least　he　wasn’t　in　any　pain。　Not　yet。　
　“Is　there　anything　you　want　to　talk　about　before　you　leave？”　Alice　asked　sympathetically。　“You　must　be　
more　than　a　little　traumatized。”　
　I　knew　what　she　was　curious　about。　But　I　had　other　questions。　
　“Will　I　be　like　that？”　I　asked　her；　my　voice　subdued。　“Like　that　girl　Bree　in　the　meadow？”　
　There　were　many　things　I　needed　to　think　of；　but　I　couldn’t　seem　to　get　her　out　of　my　head；　the　newborn　
whose　other　life　was　now　—　abruptly　—　over。　Her　face；　twisted　with　desire　for　my　blood；　lingered　behind　my　
eyelids。　
　Alice　stroked　my　arm。　“Everyone　is　different。　But　something　like　that；　yes。”　
　I　was　very　still；　trying　to　imagine。　
　“It　passes；”　she　promised。　
　“How　soon？”　

She　shrugged。　“A　few　years；　maybe　less。　It　might　be　different　for　you。　I’ve　never　seen　anyone　go　through　
this　who’s　chosen　it　beforehand。　It　should　be　interesting　to　see　how　that　affects　you。”　
“Interesting；”　I　repeated。　
“We’ll　keep　you　out　of　trouble。”　
“I　know　that。　I　trust　you。”　My　voice　was　monotone；　dead。　
Alice’s　forehead　puckered。　“If　you’re　worried　about　Carlisle　and　Edward；　I’m　sure　they’ll　be　fine。　I　
believe　Sam　is　beginning　to　trust　us　。　。　。　well；　to　trust　Carlisle；　at　least。　It’s　a　good　thing；　too。　I　imagine　the　
atmosphere　got　a　little　tense　when　Carlisle　had　to　rebreak　the　fractures　—”　
“Please；　Alice。”　
“Sorry。”　
I　took　a　deep　breath　to　steady　myself。　Jacob　had　begun　healing　too　quickly；　and　some　of　his　bones　had　
set　wrong。　He’d　been　out　cold　for　the　process；　but　it　was　still　hard　to　think　about。　
“Alice；　can　I　ask　you　a　question？　About　the　future？”　
She　was　suddenly　wary。　“You　know　I　don’t　see　everything。”　
“It’s　not　that；　exactly。　But　you　do　see　my　future；　sometimes。　Why　is　that；　do　you　think；　when　nothing　else　
works　on　me？　Not　what　Jane　can　do；　or　Edward　or　Aro　。　。　。”　My　sentence　trailed　off　with　my　interest　level。　
My　curiosity　on　this　point　was　fleeting；　heavily　overshadowed　by　more　pressing　emotions。　
Alice；　however；　found　the　question　very　interesting。　“Jasper；　too；　Bella　—　his　talent　works　on　your　body　
just　as　well　as　it　does　on　anyone　else’s。　That’s　the　difference；　do　you　see　it？　Jasper’s　abilities　affect　the　body　
physically。　He　really　does　calm　your　system　down；　or　excite　it。　It’s　not　an　illusion。　And　I　see　visions　of　
outes；　not　the　reasons　and　thoughts　behind　the　decisions　that　create　them。　It’s　outside　the　mind；　not　an　
illusion；　either；　reality；　or　at　least　one　version　of　it。　But　Jane　and　Edward　and　Aro　and　Demetri　—　they　work　
inside　the　mind。　Jane　only　creates　an　illusion　of　pain。　She　doesn’t　really　hurt　your　body；　you　only　think　you　feel　
it。　You　see；　Bella？　You　are　safe　inside　your　mind。　No　one　can　reach　you　there。　It’s　no　wonder　that　Aro　was　
so　curious　about　your　future　abilities。”　
She　watched　my　face　to　see　if　I　was　following　her　logic。　In　truth；　her　words　had　all　started　to　run　together；　
the　syllables　and　sounds　losing　their　meaning。　I　couldn’t　concentrate　on　them。　Still；　I　nodded。　Trying　to　look　
like　I　got　it。　
She　wasn’t　fooled。　She　stroked　my　cheek　and　murmured；　“He’s　going　to　be　okay；　Bella。　I　don’t　need　a　
vision　to　know　that。　Are　you　ready　to　go？”　
“One　more　thing。　Can　I　ask　you　another　question　about　the　future？　I　don’t　want　specifics；　just　an　
overview。”　
“I’ll　do　my　best；”　she　said；　doubtful　again。　
“Can　you　still　see　me　being　a　vampire？”　
“Oh；　that’s　easy。　Sure；　I　do。”　
I　nodded　slowly。　
She　examined　my　face；　her　eyes　unfathomable。　“Don’t　you　know　your　own　mind；　Bella？”　
“I　do。　I　just　wanted　to　be　sure。”　
“I’m　only　as　sure　as　you　are；　Bella。　You　know　that。　If　you　were　to　change　your　mind；　what　I　see　would　
change　。　。　。　or　disappear；　in　your　case。”　
I　sighed。　“That　isn’t　going　to　happen；　though。”　
She　put　her　arms　around　me。　“I’m　sorry。　I　can’t　really　empathize。　My　first　memory　is　of　seeing　Jasper’s　
face　in　my　future；　I　always　knew　that　he　was　where　my　life　was　headed。　But　I　can　sympathize。　I’m　so　sorry　
you　have　to　choose　between　two　good　things。”　
I　shook　off　her　arms。　“Don’t　feel　sorry　for　me。”　There　were　people　who　deserved　sympathy。　I　wasn’t　one　
of　them。　And　there　wasn’t　any　choice　to　make　—　there　was　just　breaking　a　good　heart　to　attend　to　now。　“I’ll　
go　deal　with　Charlie。”　
I　drove　my　truck　home；　where　Charlie　was　waiting　just　as　suspiciously　as　Alice　had　expected。　
“Hey；　Bella。　How　was　your　shopping　trip？”　he　greeted　me　when　I　walked　into　the　kitchen。　He　had　his　
arms　folded　over　his　chest；　his　eyes　on　my　face。　
“Long；”　I　said　dully。　“We　just　got　back。”　
Charlie　assessed　my　mood。　“I　guess　you　already　heard　about　Jake；　then？”　

“Yes。　The　rest　of　the　Cullens　beat　us　home。　Esme　told　us　where　Carlisle　and　Edward　were。”　
“Are　you　okay？”　
“Worried　about　Jake。　As　soon　as　I　make　dinner；　I’m　going　down　to　La　Push。”　
“I　told　you　those　motorcycles　were　dangerous。　I　hope　this　makes　you　realize　that　I　wasn’t　kidding　
around。”　
I　nodded　as　I　started　pulling　things　out　of　the　fridge。　Charlie　settled　himself　in　at　the　table。　He　seemed　to　
be　in　a　more　talkative　mood　than　usual。　
“I　don’t　think　you　need　to　worry　about　Jake　too　much。　Anyone　who　can　cuss　with　that　kind　of　energy　is　
going　to　recover。”　
“Jake　was　awake　when　you　saw　him？”　I　asked；　spinning　to　look　at　him。　
“Oh；　yeah；　he　was　awake。　You　should　have　heard　him　—　actually；　it’s　better　you　didn’t。　I　don’t　think　
there　was　anyone　in　La　Push　who　couldn’t　hear　him。　I　don’t　know　where　he　picked　up　that　vocabulary；　but　I　
hope　he　hasn’t　been　using　that　kind　of　language　around　you。”　
“He　had　a　pretty　good　excuse　today。　How　did　he　look？”　
“Messed　up。　His　friends　carried　him　in。　Good　thing　they’re　big　boys；　’cause　that　kid’s　an　armful。　Carlisle　
said　his　right　leg　is　broken；　and　his　right　arm。　Pretty　much　the　whole　right　side　of　his　body　got　crushed　when　he　
wrecked　that　damn　bike。”　Charlie　shook　his　head。　“If　I　ever　hear　of　you　riding　again；　Bella　—”　
“No　problem　there；　Dad。　You　won’t。　Do　you　really　think　Jake’s　okay？”　
“Sure；　Bella；　don’t　worry。　He　was　himself　enough　to　tease　me。”　
“Tease　you？”　I　echoed　in　shock。　
“Yeah　—　in　between　insulting　somebody’s　mother　and　taking　the　Lord’s　name　in　vain；　he　said；　‘Bet　
you’re　glad　she　loves　Cullen　instead　of　me　today；　huh；　Charlie？’”　
I　turned　back　to　the　fridge　so　that　he　couldn’