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My　eyes；　in　particular；　were　much　too　frightening　right　now。　How　long　before　my　selfcontrol　and　my　
eye　color　were　ready　for　Charlie？　

〃What's　the　matter；　Bella？〃　Jasper　asked　quietly；　reading　my　growing　tension。　〃No　one　is　angry　with　
you〃—alow　snarl　from　the　riverside　contradicted　him；　but　he　ignored　it—〃or　even　surprised；　really。　Well；　
I　suppose　we　are　surprised。　Surprised　that　you　were　able　to　snap　out　of　it　so　quickly。　You　did　well。　
Better　than　anyone　expects　of　you。〃　

While　he　was　speaking；　the　room　became　very　calm。　Seth's　breathing　slipped　into　a　low　snore。　Ifelt　
more　peaceful；　but　I　didn't　forget　my　anxieties。　

〃I　was　thinking　about　Charlie；　actually。〃　

Out　front；　the　bickering　cut　off。　

〃Ah；〃　Jasper　murmured。　

〃We　really　have　to　leave；　don't　we？〃　I　asked。　〃For　a　while；　at　the　very　least。　Pretend　we're　in　Atlanta　or　
something。〃　

I　could　feel　Edward's　gaze　locked　on　my　face；　but　I　looked　at　Jasper。　He　was　the　one　who　answered　
me　in　a　grave　tone。　

〃Yes。　It's　the　only　way　to　protect　your　father。〃　

I　brooded　for　a　moment。　〃I'm　going　to　miss　him　so　much。　I'll　miss　everyone　here。〃　

Jacob；I　thought；　despite　myself。　Though　that　yearning　was　both　vanished　and　defined—and　I　was　vastly　
relieved　that　it　was—he　was　still　my　friend。　Someone　who　knew　the　real　me　and　accepted　her。　Even　as　a　
monster。　

I　thought　about　what　Jacob　had　said；　pleading　with　me　before　I'd　attacked　him。　You　said　we　belonged　
in　each　other's　lives；　right？　That　we　were　family。　You　said　that　was　how　you　and　I　were　supposed　



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to　be。　So。。。　now　we　are。　It's　what　you　wanted。　

But　it　didn't　feel　like　how　I'd　wanted　it。　Not　exactly。　I　remembered　further　back；　to　the　fuzzy；　weak　
memories　of　my　human　life。　Back　to　the　very　hardest　part　to　remember—the　time　without　Edward；　a　
time　so　dark　I'd　tried　to　bury　it　in　my　head。　I　couldn't　get　the　words　exactly　right；　I　only　remembered　
wishing　that　Jacob　were　my　brother　so　that　we　could　love　each　other　without　any　confusion　or　pain。　
Family。　But　I'd　never　factored　a　daughter　into　the　equation。　

I　remembered　a　little　later—one　of　the　many　times　that　I'd　told　Jacob　goodbye—wondering　aloud　who　
he　would　end　up　with；　who　would　make　his　life　right　after　what　I'd　done　to　it。　I　had　said　something　about　
how　whoever　she　was；　

she　wouldn't　be　good　enough　for　him。　

I　snorted；　and　Edward　raised　one　eyebrow　questioningly。　I　just　shook　my　head　at　him。　

But　as　much　as　I　might　miss　my　friend；　I　knew　there　was　a　bigger　problem。　Had　Sam　or　Jared　or　Quil　
ever　gone　a　whole　day　without　seeing　the　objects　of　their　fixations；　Emily；　Kim；　and　Claire？　Could　they？　
What　would　the　separation　from　Renesmee　do　to　Jacob？　Would　it　cause　him　pain？　

There　was　still　enough　petty　ire　in　my　system　to　make　me　glad；　not　for　his　pain；　but　for　the　idea　of　having　
Renesmee　away　from　him。　How　was　I　supposed　to　deal　with　having　her　belong　to　Jacob　when　she　only　
barely　seemed　to　belong　to　me？　

The　sound　of　movement　on　the　front　porch　interrupted　my　thoughts。　I　heard　them　get　up；　and　then　they　
were　through　the　door。　At　exactly　the　same　time；　Carlisle　came　down　the　stairs　with　his　hands　full　of　odd　
things—a　measuring　tape；　a　scale。　Jasper　darted　to　my　side。　As　if　there　was　some　signal　I'd　missed；　even　
Leah　sat　down　outside　and　stared　through　the　window　with　an　expression　like　she　was　expecting　
something　that　was　both　familiar　and　also　totally　uninteresting。　

〃Must　be　six；〃　Edward　said。　

〃So？〃　I　asked；　my　eyes　locked　on　Rosalie；　Jacob；　and　Renesmee。　They　stood　in　the　doorway；　
Renesmee　in　Rosalie's　arms。　Rose　looked　wary。　Jacob　looked　troubled。　Renesmee　looked　beautiful　and　
impatient。　

〃Time　to　measure　Ness—er；　Renesmee；〃　Carlisle　explained。　

〃Oh。　You　do　this　every　day？〃　

〃Four　times　a　day；〃　Carlisle　corrected　absently　as　he　motioned　the　others　toward　the　couch。　I　thought　I　
saw　Renesmee　sigh。　

〃Four　times？　Every　day？　Why？〃　

〃She's　still　growing　quickly；〃　Edward　murmured　to　me；　his　voice　quiet　and　strained。　He　squeezed　my　
hand；　and　his　other　arm　wrapped　securely　around　my　waist；　almost　as　if　he　needed　the　support。　

I　couldn't　take　my　eyes　off　Renesmee　to　check　his　expression。　

She　looked　perfect；　absolutely　healthy。　Her　skin　glowed　like　backlit　alabaster；　the　color　in　her　cheeks　



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was　rose　petals　against　it。　There　couldn't　be　anything　wrong　with　such　radiant　beauty。　Surely　there　could　
be　nothing　more　dangerous　in　her　life　than　her　mother。　Could　there？　

The　difference　between　the　child　I'd　given　birth　to　and　the　one　I'd　met　again　an　hour　ago　would　have　
been　obvious　to　anyone。　The　difference　between　Renesmee　an　hour　ago　and　Renesmee　now　was　subtler。　
Human　eyes　never　would　have　detected　it。　But　it　was　there。　

Her　body　was　slightly　longer。　Just　a　little　bit　slimmer。　Her　face　wasn't　quite　as　round；　it　was　more　oval　by　
one　minute　degree。　Her　ringlets　hung　a　sixteenth　of　an　inch　lower　down　her　shoulders。　She　stretched　out　
helpfully　in　Rosalie's　arms　while　Carlisle　ran　the　tape　measure　down　the　length　of　her　and　then　used　it　to　
circle　her　head。　He　took　no　notes；　perfect　recall。　

I　was　aware　that　Jacob's　arms　were　crossed　as　tightly　over　his　chest　as　Edward's　arms　were　locked　
around　

me。　His　heavy　brows　were　mashed　together　into　one　line　over　his　deepset　eyes。　

She　had　matured　from　a　single　cell　to　a　normalsized　baby　in　the　course　of　a　few　weeks。　She　looked　
well　on　her　way　to　being　a　toddler　just　days　after　her　birth。　If　this　rate　of　growth　held。。。　

My　vampire　mind　had　no　trouble　with　the　math。　

〃What　do　we　do？〃　I　whispered；　horrified。　

Edward's　arms　tightened。　He　understood　exactly　what　I　was　asking。　〃I　don't　know。〃　

〃It's　slowing；〃　Jacob　muttered　through　his　teeth。　

〃We'll　need　several　more　days　of　measurements　to　track　the　trend；　Jacob。　I　can't　make　any　promises。〃　

〃Yesterday　she　grew　two　inches。　Today　it's　less。〃　

〃By　a　thirtysecond　of　an　inch；　if　my　measurements　are　perfect；〃　Carlisle　said　quietly。　

〃Be　perfect；　Doc；〃　Jacob　said；　making　the　words　almost　threatening。　Rosalie　stiffened。　

〃You　know　I'll　do　my　best；〃　Carlisle　assured　him。　

Jacob　sighed。　〃Guess　that's　all　I　can　ask。〃　

I　felt　irritated　again；　like　Jacob　was　stealing　my　lines—and　delivering　them　all　wrong。　

Renesmee　seemed　irritated；　too。　She　started　to　squirm　and　then　reached　her　hand　imperiously　toward　
Rosalie。　Rosalie　leaned　forward　so　that　Renesmee　could　touch　her　face。　After　a　second；　Rose　sighed。　

〃What　does　she　want？〃　Jacob　demanded；　taking　my　line　again。　

〃Bella；　of　course；〃　Rosalie　told　him；　and　her　words　made　my　insides　feel　a　little　warmer。　Then　she　
looked　at　me。　〃How　are　you？〃　

〃Worried；〃　I　admitted；　and　Edward　squeezed　me。　



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〃We　all　are。　But　that's　not　what　I　meant。〃　

〃I'm　in　control；〃　I　promised。　Thirstiness　was　way　down　the　list　right　now。　Besides；　Renesmee　smelled　
good　in　a　very　nonfood　way。　

Jacob　bit　his　lip　but　made　no　move　to　stop　Rosalie　as　she　offered　Renesmee　to　me。　Jasper　and　Edward　
hovered　but　allowed　it。　I　could　see　how　tense　Rose　was；　and　I　wondered　how　the　room　felt　to　Jasper　
right　now。　Or　was　he　focusing　so　hard　on　me　that　he　couldn't　feel　the　others？　

Renesmee　reached　for　me　as　I　reached　for　her；　a　blinding　smile　lighting　her　face。　She　fit　so　easily　in　my　
arms；　like　they'd　been　shaped　just　for　her。　Immediately；　she　put　her　hot　little　hand　against　my　cheek。　

Though　I　was　prepared；　it　still　made　me　gasp　to　see　the　memory　like　a　vision　in　my　head。　So　bright　and　
colorful　but　also　pletely　transparent。　

She　was　remembering　me　charging　Jacob　across　the　front　lawn；　remembering　Seth　leaping　between　us。　
She'd　seen　and　heard　it　all　with　perfect　clarity。　It　didn't　look　like　me；　this　graceful　predator　leaping　at　her　
prey　like　an　arrow　arcing　from　a　bow。　It　had　to　be　someone　else。　That　made　me　feel　a　very　small　bit　less　
guilty　as　Jacob　stood　there　defenselessly　with　his　hands　raise