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was　almost　touching　the　ground；　bowed　under　Sam's　mands。　I　felt　his　pain　at　the　ing　disloyalty。　
For　him　this　was　a　betrayal—during　that　one　day　of　alliance；　fighting　beside　Edward　Cullen；　Seth　had　
truly　bee　the　vampire's　friend。　

There　was　no　resistance　in　him；　however。　He　would　obey　no　matter　how　much　it　hurt　him。　He　had　no　
other　

choice。　

And　what　choice　did　I　have？　When　the　Alpha　spoke；　the　pack　followed。　

Sam　had　never　pushed　his　authority　this　far　before；　I　knew　he　honestly　hated　to　see　Seth　kneeling　before　
him　like　a　slave　at　the　foot　of　his　master。　He　wouldn't　force　this　if　he　didn't　believe　that　he　had　no　other　
choice。　He　couldn't　lie　to　us　when　we　were　linked　mind　to　mind　like　this。　He　really　believed　it　was　our　
duty　to　destroy　Bella　and　the　monster　she　carried。　He　really　believed　we　had　no　time　to　waste。　He　
believed　it　enough　to　die　for　it。　

I　saw　that　he　would　face　Edward　himself；　Edward's　ability　to　read　our　thoughts　made　him　the　greatest　
threat　in　Sam's　mind。　Sam　would　not　let　someone　else　take　on　that　danger。　

He　saw　Jasper　as　the　secondgreatest　opponent；　which　is　why　he'd　given　him　to　me。　He　knew　that　I　had　
the　best　chance　of　any　of　the　pack　to　win　that　fight。　He'd　left　the　easiest　targets　for　the　younger　wolves　
and　Leah。　Little　Alice　was　no　danger　without　her　future　vision　to　guide　her；　and　we　knew　from　our　time　
of　alliance　that　Esme　was　not　a　fighter。　Carlisle　would　be　more　of　a　challenge；　but　his　hatred　of　violence　
would　hinder　him。　

I　felt　sicker　than　Seth　as　I　watched　Sam　plan　it　out；　trying　to　work　the　angles　to　give　each　member　of　the　
pack　the　best　chance　of　survival。　

Everything　was　inside　out。　This　afternoon；　I'd　been　chomping　at　the　bit　to　attack　them。　But　Seth　had　
been　right—it　wasn't　a　fight　I'd　been　ready　for。　I'd　blinded　myself　with　that　hate。　I　hadn't　let　myself　look　
at　it　carefully；　because　I　must　have　known　what　I　would　see　if　I　did。　

Carlisle　Cullen。　Looking　at　him　without　that　hate　clouding　my　eyes；　I　couldn't　deny　that　killing　him　was　
murder。　He　was　good。　Good　as　any　human　we　protected。　Maybe　better。　The　others；　too；　I　supposed；　
but　I　didn't　feel　as　strongly　about　them。　I　didn't　know　them　as　well。　It　was　Carlisle　who　would　hate　
fighting　back；　even　to　save　his　own　life。　That's　why　we　would　be　able　to　kill　him—because　he　wouldn't　
want　us；　his　enemies；　to　die。　

This　was　wrong。　

And　it　wasn't　just　because　killing　Bella　felt　like　killing　me；　like　suicide。　




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Pull　it　together；　Jacob；Sam　ordered。　The　tribe　es　first　

I　was　wrong　today；　Sam。　

Your　reasons　were　wrong　then。　But　now　we　have　a　duty　to　fulfill。　

I　braced　myself。　No。　

Sam　snarled　and　stopped　pacing　in　front　of　me。　He　stared　into　my　eyes　and　a　deep　growl　slid　between　
his　teeth。　

Yes；the　Alpha　decreed；　his　double　voice　blistering　with　the　heat　of　his　authority。　There　are　no　
loopholes　tonight。　You；　Jacob；　are　going　to　fight　the　Cullens　with　us。　You；　with　Quil　and　Embry；　
will　take　care　of　Jasper　and　Emmett。　You　are　obligated　to　protect　the　tribe。　That　is　why　you　exist。　
You　willperform　this　obligation。　

My　shoulders　hunched　as　the　edict　crushed　me。　My　legs　collapsed；　and　I　was　on　my　belly　under　him。　

No　member　of　the　pack　could　refuse　the　Alpha。　

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Sam　started　moving　the　others　into　formation　while　i　was　still　on　the　ground。　Embry　and　Quil　were　at　my　
sides；　waiting　for　me　to　recover　and　take　the　point。　

I　could　feel　the　drive；　the　need；　to　get　on　my　feet　and　lead　them。　The　pulsion　grew；　and　I　fought　it　
uselessly；　cringing　on　the　ground　where　I　was。　

Embry　whined　quietly　in　my　ear。　He　didn't　want　to　think　the　words；　afraid　that　he　would　bring　me　to　
Sam's　attention　again。　I　felt　his　wordless　plea　for　me　to　get　up；　for　me　to　get　this　over　with　and　be　done　
with　it。　

There　was　fear　in　the　pack；　not　so　much　for　self　but　for　the　whole。　We　couldn't　imagine　that　we　would　
all　make　it　out　alive　tonight。　Which　brothers　would　we　lose？　Which　minds　would　leave　us　forever？　Which　
grieving　families　would　we　be　consoling　in　the　morning？　

My　mind　began　to　work　with　theirs；　to　think　in　unison；　as　we　dealt　with　these　fears。　Automatically；　I　
pushed　up　from　the　ground　and　shook　out　my　coat。　

Embry　and　Quil　huffed　in　relief。　Quil　touched　his　nose　to　my　side　once。　

Their　minds　were　filled　with　our　challenge；　our　assignment。　We　remembered　together　the　nights　we'd　
watched　the　Cullens　practicing　for　the　fight　with　the　newborns。　Emmett　Cullen　was　strongest；　but　Jasper　
would　be　the　bigger　problem。　He　moved　like　a　lightning　strike—power　and　speed　and　death　rolled　into　
one。　How　many　centuries'　experience　did　he　have？　Enough　that　all　the　other　Cullens　looked　to　him　for　
guidance。　

'　take　point；　if　you　want　flank；　Quil　offered。　There　was　more　excitement　in　his　mind　than　most　of　the　
others。　When　Quil　had　watched　Jasper's　instruction　those　nights；　he'd　been　dying　to　test　his　skill　against　
the　vampire's。　For　him；　this　would　be　a　contest。　Even　knowing　it　was　his　life　on　the　line；　he　saw　it　that　
way。　Paul　was　like　that；　too；　and　the　kids　who　had　never　been　in　battle；　Collin　and　Brady。　Seth　probably　



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would've　been　the　same—if　the　opponents　were　not　his　friends。　

Jake？Quil　nudged　me。　How　do　you　want　to　roll？　

I　just　shook　my　head；　t　couldn't　concentrate—the　pulsion　to　follow　orders　felt　like　puppet　strings　
hooked　intoall　of　my　muscles。　One　foot　forward；　now　another。　

Seth　was　dragging　behind　Collin　and　Brady—Leah　had　assumed　point　there。　She　ignored　Seth　while　
planning　with　the　others；　and　I　could　see　that　she'd　rather　leave　him　out　of　the　fight。There　was　a　maternal　
edge　to　her　feelings　for　her　younger　brother。　She　wished　Sam　would　send　him　home。　Seth　didn't　register　
Leah's　doubts。　He　was　adjusting　to　the　puppet　strings；　too。　

Maybe　if　you　stopped　resisting。。。；Embry　whispered。　

Just　focus　on　our　part。　The　big　ones。　We　can　take　them　down。　We　own　them！Quil　was　working　himself　
up—like　a　pep　talk　before　a　big　game。　

I　could　see　how　easy　it　would　be—to　think　about　nothing　more　than　my　part。　It　wasn't　hard　to　imaging　
attacking　Jasper　and　Emmett。　We'd　been　close　to　that　before。　I'd　thought　of　them　as　enemies　for　a　very　
long　time。　I　could　do　that　now　again。　

I　just　had　to　forget　that　they　were　protecting　the　same　thing　I　would　protect。　I　had　to　forget　the　reason　
why　I　might　want　them　to　win。。。。　

Jake；Embry　warned。　Keep　your　head　in　the　game。　

My　feet　moved　sluggishly；　pulling　against　the　drag　of　the　strings。　

There's　no　point　fighting　it；Embry　whispered　again。　

He　was　right。　I　would　end　up　doing　what　Sam　wanted；　if　he　was　willing　to　push　it。　And　he　was。　
Obviously。　

There　was　a　good　reason　for　the　Alpha's　authority。　Even　a　pack　as　strong　as　ours　wasn't　much　of　a　
force　without　a　leader。　We　had　to　move　together；　to　think　together；　in　order　to　be　effective。　And　that　
required　the　body　to　have　a　head。　

So　what　if　Sam　was　wrong　now？　There　was　nothing　anyone　could　do。　No　one　could　dispute　his　
decision。　

Except。　

And　there　it　was—a　thought　I'd　never；　never　wanted　to　have。　But　now；　with　my　legs　all　tied　up　in　strings；　
I　recognized　the　exception　with　relief—more　than　relief；　with　a　fierce　joy。　

No　one　could　dispute　the　Alpha's　decision—except　for　me。　

I　hadn't　earned　anything。　But　there　were　things　that　had　been　born　in　me；　things　that　I'd　left　unclaimed。　

I'd　never　wanted　to　lead　the　pack。　I　didn't　want　to　do　it　now。　I　didn't　want　the　responsibility　for　all　our　
fates　resting　on　my　shoulders。　Sam　was　better　at　that　than　I　would　ever　be。　



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But　he　was　wrong　tonight。　

And　I　had　not　been　born　to　kneel　to　him。　

The　bonds　fell　off　my　body　the　second　that　I　embraced　my　birthright。　

I　could　feel　it　gathering　in　me；　both　a　freedomand　also　a　strange；　hollow　power。Hollow　because　an　
Alpha's　power　came　from　his　pack；　and　I　ha