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over　the　top。　But　he　didn　t　pay　any　attention　to　her　at　all。　What　a　strange　detail　to　share。　I　was　surprised　Bella　had　even　noticed。　seemed　a　very　inconsequential　thing。　Interesting　Hmm。　That　s　a　good　sign。　Was　she　pretty？　Must　be　a　female　thing。　It　Jessica　thought　more　of　it　that　I　did。　Very；　Bella　told　her。　And　probably　nieen　or　twenty。　Jessica　was　momentarily　distracted　by　a　memory　of　Mike　on　her　date　Monday　night　Mike　being　a　little　too　friendly　with　a　waitress　who　Jessica　did　not　consider　pretty　at　all。　She　shoved　the　memory　away　and　returned；　stifling　her　irritation；　to　her　quest　for　details。　Even　better。　He　must　like　you。　I　think　so；　Bella　said　slowly；　and　I　was　on　the　edge　of　my　seat；　my　body　rigidly　still。　But　it　s　hard　to　tell。　He　s　always　so　cryptic。　I　must　not　have　been　as　transparently　obvious　and　out　of　control　as　I　d　thought。　Still　observant　as　she　was　How　could　she　not　realize　that　I　was　in　love　with　her？　I　sifted　through　our　conversation；　almost　surprised　that　I　hadn　t　said　the　words　out　loud。　It　had　felt　like　that　knowledge　had　been　the　subtext　of　every　word　between　us。　Wow。　How　do　you　sit　there　across　from　a　male　model　and　make　conversation？　I　don　t　know　how　you　re　brave　enough　to　be　alone　with　him；　Jessica　said。　Shock　flashed　across　Bella　s　face。　Weird　reaction。　Why？　He　s　so　What　s　the　right　word？　What　does　she　think　I　meant？

Intimidating。　I　wouldn　t　know　what　to　say　to　him。　I　couldn　t　even　speak　English　to　him　today；　and　all　he　said　was　good　morning。　I　must　have　sounded　like　such　an　idiot。　Bella　smiled。　I　do　have　some　trouble　with　incoherency　when　I　m　around　him。　She　was　almost　unnaturally　selfShe　must　be　trying　to　make　Jessica　feel　better。　possessed　when　we　were　together。　Oh　well；　Jessica　sighed。　He　is　unbelievably　gorgeous。　Bella　s　face　was　suddenly　colder。　Her　eyes　flashed　the　same　way　they　did　when　she　resented　some　injustice。　Jessica　didn　t　process　the　change　in　her　expression。　There　s　a　lot　more　to　him　than　that；　Bella　snapped。　Oooh。　Now　we　re　getting　somewhere。　Really？　Like　what？　Bella　gnawed　her　lip　for　a　moment。　I　can　t　explain　it　right；　she　finally　said。　But　he　s　even　more　unbelievable　behind　the　face。　She　looked　away　from　Jessica；　her　eyes　slightly　unfocused　as　if　she　was　staring　at　something　very　far　away。　The　feeling　I　felt　now　was　loosely　similar　to　how　it　felt　when　Carlisle　or　Esme　praised　me　beyond　what　I　deserved。　Similar；　but　more　intense；　more　consuming。　Sell　stupid　somewhere　else　there　s　nothing　better　than　that　face！　body。　Swoon。　Is　that　possible？　Jessica　giggled。　Unless　it　s　his　Bella　didn　t　turn。　She　continued　to　stare　into　the　distance；　ignoring　Jessica。　A　normal　person　would　be　gloating。　Maybe　if　I　keep　the　questions　simple。　Ha　ha。　Like　I　m　talking　to　a　kindergartener。　So　you　like　him；　then？　I　was　rigid　again。　Bella　didn　t　look　at　Jessica。　Yes。　I　mean；　do　you　really　like　him？　Yes。　Look　at　that　blush！　I　was。　How　much　do　you　like　him？　Jessica　demanded。　The　English　room　could　have　gone　up　in　flames　and　I　wouldn　t　have　noticed。　Bella　s　face　was　bright　red　now　I　could　almost　feel　the　heat　from　the　mental　picture。　Too　much；　she　whispered。　help　that。　Shoot！　More　than　he　likes　me。　But　I　don　t　see　how　I　can　What　did　Mr。　Varner　just　ask？　Um　which　number；　Mr。　Varner？　I　needed　a　minute。　It　was　good　that　Jessica　could　no　longer　quiz　Bella。

What　on　earth　was　that　girl　thinking　now？　More　than　he　likes　me？　How　did　she　e　up　with　that？　But　I　don　t　see　how　I　can　help　that？　What　was　that　supposed　to　mean？　I　couldn　t　fit　a　rational　explanation　to　the　words。　They　were　practically　senseless。　It　seemed　I　couldn　t　take　anything　for　granted。　Obvious　things；　things　that　made　perfect　sense；　somehow　got　twisted　up　and　turned　backwards　in　that　bizarre　brain　of　hers。　More　than　he　likes　me？　Maybe　I　shouldn　t　rule　out　the　institution　just　yet。　I　glared　at　the　clock；　gritting　my　teeth。　How　could　mere　minutes　feel　so　impossibly　long　to　an　immortal？　Where　was　my　perspective？　My　jaw　was　tight　throughout　Mr。　Varner　s　entire　trigonometry　lesson。　I　heard　more　of　that　than　the　lecture　in　my　own　class。　Bella　and　Jessica　didn　t　speak　again；　but　Jessica　peeked　at　Bella　several　times；　and　once　her　face　was　brilliant　scarlet　again　for　no　apparent　reason。　Lunch　couldn　t　e　fast　enough。　I　wasn　t　sure　if　Jessica　would　get　some　of　the　answers　I　was　waiting　for　when　the　class　was　over；　but　Bella　was　quicker　than　she　was。　As　soon　as　the　bell　sounded；　Bella　turned　to　Jessica。　In　English；　Mike　asked　me　if　you　said　anything　about　Monday　night；　Bella　said；　a　smile　pulling　at　the　corners　of　her　lips。　I　understood　this　for　what　is　was　offence　as　the　best　defense。　Mike　asked　about　me？　Joy　made　Jessica　s　mind　suddenly　unguarded；　softer；　without　its　usual　snide　edge。　You　re　kidding！　What　did　you　say？　I　told　him　you　said　you　had　a　lot　of　fun　and　he　looked　pleased。　Tell　me　exactly　what　he　said；　and　your　exact　answer！　That　was　all　I　was　going　to　get　from　Jessica　today；　clearly。　Bella　was　smiling　like　she　was　thinking　the　same　thing。　Like　she　d　won　the　round。　Well；　lunch　would　be　another　story。　I　would　have　better　success　with　getting　answers　out　of　her　than　Jessica；　I　would　make　sure　of　that。　I　could　hardly　bear　to　check　in　occasionally　with　Jessica　through　the　fourth　hour。　I　had　no　patience　for　her　obsessive　thoughts　of　Mike　Newton。　I　d　had　more　than　enough　of　him　in　the　last　two　weeks。　He　was　lucky　to　be　alive。　I　moved　apathetically　through　gym　class　with　Alice；　the　way　we　always　moved　when　it　came　to　physical　activity　with　humans。　She　was　my　teammate；　naturally。　It　was　the　first　day　of　badminton。　I　sighed　with　boredom；　swinging　the　racket　in　slow　motion　to　tap　the　birdie　back　to　the　other　side。　Lauren　Mallory　was　on　the　other　team；　she　missed。　Alice　was　twirling　her　racket　like　a　baton；　staring　at　the　ceiling。　We　all　hated　gym；　Emmett　especially。　Throwing　games　was　an　affront　to　his　personal　philosophy。　Gym　seemed　worse　today　than　usual　I　felt　just　as　irritated　as　Emmett　always　did。

Before　my　head　could　explode　with　impatience；　Coach　Clapp　called　the　games　and　sent　us　out　early。　I　was　ridiculously　grateful　that　he　d　skipped　breakfast　a　fresh　attempt　to　diet　and　the　consequent　hunger　had　him　in　a　hurry　to　leave　campus　to　find　a　greasy　lunch　somewhere。　He　promised　himself　he　would　start　over　tomorrow。。。　This　gave　me　enough　time　to　get　to　the　math　building　before　Bella　s　class　ended。　Enjoy　yourself；　Alice　thought　as　she　headed　off　to　meet　Jasper。　Just　a　few　days　more　to　be　patient。　I　suppose　you　won　t　say　hi　to　Bella　for　me；　will　you？　I　shook　my　head；　exasperated。　Were　all　psychics　so　smug？　You　might　FYI；　it　s　going　to　be　sunny　on　both　sides　of　the　sound　this　weekend。　want　to　rearrange　your　plans。　I　sighed　as　I　continued　in　the　opposite　direction。　Smug；　but　definitely　useful。　I　leaned　against　the　wall　by　the　door；　waiting。　I　was　close　enough　that　I　could　hear　Jessica　s　voice　through　the　bricks　as　well　as　her　thoughts。　You　re　not　sitting　with　us　today；　are　you？　tons　she　didn　t　tell　me。　She　looks　all　lit　up。　I　bet　there　s　I　don　t　think　so；　Bella　answered；　oddly　unsure。　Hadn　t　I　promised　to　spend　lunch　with　her？　What　was　she　thinking？　They　came　out　of　the　class　together；　and　both　girls　eyes　widened　when　they　saw　me。　But　I　could　only　hear　Jessica。　Nice。　Wow。　Oh；　yeah；　there　s　more　going　on　here　than　she　s　telling　me。　Maybe　I　ll　call　her　tonight　Or　maybe　I　shouldn　t　encourage　her。　Huh。　I　hope　he　moves　past　her　in　a　hurry。　Mike　is　cute　but　wow。　See　you　later；　Bella。　Bella　walked　toward　me；　pausing　a　step　away；　still　unsure。　across　her　cheekbones。　Her　skin　was　pink　I　knew　her　well　enough　now　to　be　sure　that　there　was　no　fear　behind　her　hesitation。　Apparently；　this　was　about　some　gulf　she　imagined　between　her　feelings　and　mine。　More　than　he　likes　me。　Absurd！　Hello；　I　said；　my　voice　a　tad　curt。　Her　face　got　brighter。　Hi。　She　didn　t　seem　inclined　to　say　anything　else；　so　I　led　the　way　to　the　cafeteria　and　she　walked　silently　beside　me。　The　jacket　had　worked　her　scent　was　not　the　blow　it　usually　was。　It　was　just　an　intensification　of　the　pain　I　already　felt。　I　could　ignore　it　more　easily　than　I　once　would　have　believed　possible。　Bella　was　restless　as　we　waited　in　line；　toying　absently　with　the　zipper　on　her　jacket　and　shifting　nervously　from　foot　to　fo