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contusions！　How　many　times　did　her　mother　drop　her？　Good　idea。　Hmm。　Carlisle　laughed　to　himself　at　his　joke。　I　m　beginning　to　think　the　girl　just　has　really　bad　luck。　place　at　the　wrong　time。　Forks　is　certainly　the　wrong　place　for　her；　with　you　here。　I　flinched。　Go　ahead。　Smooth　things　over。　I　ll　join　you　momentarily。　Perhaps　I　was　too　good　a　liar；　if　I　could　Always　in　the　wrong　I　walked　away　quickly；　feeling　guilty。　fool　Carlisle。　When　I　got　to　the　ER；　Tyler　was　mumbling　under　his　breath；　still　apologizing。　The　girl　was　trying　to　escape　his　remorse　by　pretending　to　sleep。　Her　eyes　were　closed；　but　her　breathing　was　not　even；　and　now　and　then　her　fingers　would　twitch　impatiently。　I　stared　at　her　face　for　a　long　moment。　This　was　the　last　time　I　would　see　her。　That　fact　triggered　an　acute　aching　in　my　chest。　Was　it　because　I　hated　to　leave　any　puzzle　unsolved？　That　did　not　seem　like　enough　of　an　explanation。　Finally；　I　took　a　deep　breath　and　moved　into　view。

When　Tyler　saw　me；　he　started　to　speak；　but　I　put　one　finger　to　my　lips。　Is　she　sleeping？　I　murmured。　Bella　s　eyes　snapped　open　and　focused　on　my　face。　They　widened　momentarily；　and　then　narrowed　in　anger　or　suspicion。　I　remembered　that　I　had　a　role　to　play；　so　I　smiled　at　her　as　if　nothing　unusual　had　happened　this　morning　besides　a　blow　to　her　head　and　a　bit　of　imagination　run　wild。　Hey；　Edward；　Tyler　said。　I　m　really　sorry　I　raised　one　hand　to　halt　his　apology。　No　blood；　no　foul；　I　said　wryly。　Without　thinking；　I　smiled　too　widely　at　my　private　joke。　It　was　amazingly　easy　to　ignore　Tyler；　lying　no　more　than　four　feet　from　me；　covered　in　fresh　blood。　I　d　never　understood　how　Carlisle　was　able　to　do　that　ignore　the　blood　of　his　patients　in　order　to　treat　them。　Wouldn　t　the　constant　temptation　be　so　distracting；　so　dangerous　？　But；　now　I　could　see　how；　if　you　were　focusing　on　something　else　hard　enough；　the　temptation　was　be　nothing　at　all。　Even　fresh　and　exposed；　Tyler　s　blood　had　nothing　on　Bella　s。　I　kept　my　distance　from　her；　seating　myself　on　the　foot　of　Tyler　s　mattress。　So；　what　s　the　verdict？　I　asked　her。　Her　lower　lip　pushed　out　a　little。　There　s　nothing　wrong　with　me　at　all；　but　they　won　t　let　me　go。　How　e　you　aren　t　strapped　to　a　gurney　like　the　rest　of　us？　Her　impatience　made　me　smile　again。　I　could　hear　Carlisle　in　the　hall　now。　It　s　all　about　who　you　know；　I　said　lightly。　you。　But　don　t　worry；　I　came　to　spring　I　watched　her　reaction　carefully　as　my　father　entered　the　room。　Her　eyes　widened　and　her　mouth　actually　fell　open　in　surprise。　I　groaned　internally。　Yes；　she　d　certainly　noticed　the　resemblance。　So；　Miss　Swan；　how　are　you　feeling？　Carlisle　asked。　He　had　a　wonderfully　soothing　beside　manner　that　put　most　patients　at　ease　within　moments。　I　couldn　t　tell　how　it　affected　Bella。　I　m　fine；　she　said　quietly。　Carlisle　clipped　her　Xrays　to　the　lightboard　by　the　bed。　Your　Xrays　look　good。　Does　your　head　hurt？　Edward　said　you　hit　it　pretty　hard。　She　sighed；　and　said；　I　m　fine；　again；　but　this　time　impatience　leaked　into　her　voice。　Then　she　glowered　once　in　my　direction。　Carlisle　stepped　closer　to　her　and　ran　his　fingers　gently　over　her　scalp　until　he　found　the　bump　under　her　hair。　I　was　caught　off　guard　by　the　wave　of　emotion　that　crashed　over　me。　I　had　seen　Carlisle　work　with　humans　a　thousand　times。　Years　ago；　I　had　even

assisted　him　informally　though　only　in　situations　where　blood　was　not　involved。　So　it　wasn　t　a　new　thing　to　me；　to　watch　him　interact　with　the　girl　as　if　he　were　as　human　as　she　was。　I　d　envied　his　control　many　times；　but　that　was　not　the　same　as　this　emotion。　I　envied　him　more　than　his　control。　I　ached　for　the　difference　between　Carlisle　and　me　that　he　could　touch　her　so　gently；　without　fear；　knowing　he　would　never　harm　her　She　winced；　and　I　twitched　in　my　seat。　my　relaxed　posture。　Tender？　Carlisle　asked。　Her　chin　jerked　up　a　fraction。　Not　really；　she　said。　She　didn　t　I　had　to　concentrate　for　a　moment　to　keep　Another　small　piece　of　her　character　fell　into　place：　she　was　brave。　like　to　show　weakness。　Possibly　the　most　vulnerable　creature　I　d　ever　seen；　and　she　didn　t　want　to　seem　weak。　A　chuckle　slid　through　my　lips。　She　shot　another　glare　at　me。　Well；　Carlisle　said。　Your　father　is　in　the　waiting　room　you　can　go　home　with　him　now。　But　e　back　if　you　feel　dizzy　or　have　trouble　with　your　eyesight　at　all。　Her　father　was　here？　I　swept　through　the　thoughts　in　the　crowded　waiting　room；　but　I　couldn　t　pick　his　subtle　mental　voice　out　of　the　group　before　she　was　speaking　again；　her　face　anxious。　Can　t　I　go　back　to　school？　Maybe　you　should　take　it　easy　today；　Carlisle　suggested。　Her　eyes　flickered　back　to　me。　Does　he　get　to　go　to　school？　Act　normal；　smooth　things　over　ignore　the　way　it　feels　when　she　looks　me　in　the　eye　Someone　has　to　spread　the　good　news　that　we　survived；　I　said。　Actually；　Carlisle　corrected；　most　of　the　school　seems　to　be　in　the　waiting　room。　I　anticipated　her　reaction　this　time　her　aversion　to　attention。　disappoint。　Oh　no；　she　moaned；　and　she　put　her　hands　over　her　face。　I　liked　that　I　d　finally　guessed　right。　Do　you　want　to　stay？　Carlisle　asked。　No；　no！　she　said　quickly；　swinging　her　legs　over　the　side　of　the　mattress　and　sliding　down　till　her　feet　were　on　the　floor。　She　stumbled　forward；　offbalance；　into　Carlisle　s　arms。　He　caught　and　steadied　her。　Again；　the　envy　flooded　through　me。　I　was　beginning　to　understand　her　She　didn　t

I　m　fine；　she　said　before　he　could　ment；　faint　pink　in　her　cheeks。　Of　course；　that　wouldn　t　bother　Carlisle。　dropped　his　hands。　He　made　sure　she　was　balanced；　and　then　Take　some　Tylenol　for　the　pain；　he　instructed。　It　doesn　t　hurt　that　bad。　Carlisle　smiled　as　he　signed　her　chart。　lucky。　It　sounds　like　you　were　extremely　Lucky　Edward　She　turned　her　face　slightly；　to　stare　at　me　with　hard　eyes。　happened　to　be　standing　next　to　me。　Oh；　well；　yes；　Carlisle　agreed　quickly；　hearing　the　same　thing　in　her　voice　that　I　heard。　She　hadn　t　written　her　suspicions　off　as　imagination。　Not　yet。　All　yours；　Carlisle　thought。　Handle　it　as　you　think　best。　Neither　human　heard　me。　Thanks　so　much；　I　whispered；　quick　and　quiet。　Carlisle　s　lips　turned　up　a　tiny　bit　at　my　sarcasm　as　he　turned　to　Tyler。　I　m　afraid　that　you　ll　have　to　stay　with　us　just　a　little　bit　longer；　he　said　as　he　began　examining　the　slashes　left　by　the　shattered　windshield。　Well；　I　d　made　the　mess；　so　it　was　only　fair　that　I　had　to　deal　with　it。　Bella　walked　deliberately　toward　me；　not　stopping　until　she　was　unfortably　close。　I　remembered　how　I　had　hoped；　before　all　the　mayhem；　that　she　would　approach　me　This　was　like　a　mockery　of　that　wish。　Can　I　talk　to　you　for　a　minute？　she　hissed　at　me。　Her　warm　breath　brushed　my　face　and　I　had　to　stagger　back　a　step。　Her　appeal　had　not　abated　one　bit。　Every　time　she　was　near　me；　it　triggered　all　my　worst；　most　urgent　instincts。　Venom　flowed　in　my　mouth　and　my　body　yearned　to　strike　to　wrench　her　into　my　arms　and　crush　her　throat　to　my　teeth。　My　mind　was　stronger　than　my　body；　but　only　just。　Your　father　is　waiting　for　you；　I　reminded　her；　my　jaw　clenched　tight。　She　glanced　toward　Carlisle　and　Tyler。　Tyler　was　paying　us　no　attention　at　all；　but　Carlisle　was　monitoring　my　every　breath。　Carefully；　Edward。　I　d　like　to　speak　to　you　alone；　if　you　don　t　mind；　she　insisted　in　a　low　voice。　I　wanted　to　tell　her　that　I　did　mind　very　much；　but　I　knew　I　would　have　to　do　this　eventually。　I　may　as　well　get　on　with　it。　I　was　full　of　so　many　conflicting　emotions　as　I　stalked　out　of　the　room；　listening　to　her　stumbling　footsteps　behind　me；　trying　to　keep　up。　I　had　a　show　to　put　on　now。　I　knew　the　role　I　would　play　I　had　the　character

down：　I　would　be　the　villain。　I　would　lie　and　ridicule　and　be　cruel。　It　went　against　all　my　better　impulses　the　human　impulses　that　I　d　clung　to　through　all　these　years。　I　d　never　wanted　to　deserve　trust　more　than　in　this　moment；　when　I　had　to　destroy　all　possibility　of　it。　It　made　it　worse　to　know　that　this　would　be　the　last　memory　she　would　have　of　me。　This　was　my　farewell　scene。　I　turned　on　her。　What　do　you　want？　I　asked　coldly。　She　cringed　back　slightly　from　my　hostility。　expression　that　had　haunted　me　Her　eyes　turned　bewildered；　the　You　owe　me　an　explanation；　she　said　in　a　small　voice；　her　ivory　face　blan